I am just a teeny bit discouraged this morning (ok, I'm really discouraged). A week and a half ago at the doctor, I was a "fingertip" dilated and 20% effaced. Today I expected some change, especially with all of the contractions I am having and the pain that has developed in my pelvis. However, there is absolutely no change at all. (With all of my other pregnancies, I've been 2-3 cm dilated by 38/39 weeks.) On top of that, I have a UTI. Lovely!
I know with my head that God is in control and this baby will be born in HIS timing. But my heart is aching. I need to get my head and heart aligned where they need to be. Besides, every day this baby continues growing and maturing inside of me...the healthier and stronger she will be. I see the doctor again next Thursday and then will start NSTs (non-stress tests) after that to monitor baby.
Why am I telling you this? I have no idea. Maybe because it's helped to type it out. I know many of you have experienced what I am going through right now and that helps, too...just knowing I'm not the oddball. :)
Well, enough wallowing in my sorrow. I'm off to clean the house and love on my kids some extra today.